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[mynewplace]

Somebody remind me that just because every man I've ever wanted in real life has rejected me at some point, it doesn't mean I'm less desireable, it doesn't mean there's some deep-seated thing wrong with me, I'm not a worthless human being just because nobody wants to be with me bad enough to actually be with me.

Because I need reminding.

I want to take this moment to say 'thank you' to those people who have commented in my lj during the last week or so. Thank YOU.

And somebody remind me that just because there are a lot of people on my 'friends' list who don't comment on my lj, it doesn't mean they're not my friends. It doesn't mean they don't like me or care what I think, or care to share what they think with me. It doesn't mean they can't be bothered to take a moment to say 'hey'.

Cause I need reminding of that, too.

You people who are reading this, who have lj's and are thinking "what a whiny attention-whore' remember. You have an lj. Thus, you crave attention too.

Comments

[raydeoaktiv.livejournal.com]

Hey...don't let others get you down. You are a very attractive, funny, intelligent woman and if there have been a couple of assholes who don't realize that, who cares? You deserve better. And remember: who you are isn't defined by who you're with. You don't have to be with someone to be whole or even be happy.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Nick. I love you for coming by and speaking up.

[the-turtle-girl.livejournal.com]

Are you calling me an attention whore? LOL.

You are awesome and I'm glad you're on my FL!

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Yes.

LOL!!!!!

Thanks babe.

And hey, did you see the new girl on naked_curves_? She looks like the new girl in my office. TehHAWT! *winkwinknudgenudge*

[onesexiladee.livejournal.com]

Hugs sweetie!! You are a great woman and some man is gonna be very lucky to have you as part of his life!! There is absolutely nothing wrong with you and you are far far from worthless babe!! Nothing at all wrong with being an attention whore, we are all like that from time to time!! Take care and big hugs again sweetness!!

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thanks Rach. I hope you're feeling better. *smile*

[amok-about-sex.livejournal.com]

You're not worthless; you're brilliant, talented, funny. You're not un-desirable; you are gorgeous, sexy, lips to die for! I'll question the caliber of men if they are choosing not to see your qualities.
And thank you for being willing to share your innermost self with me. I personally like my 'whore' friends! What good is a blank journal? A hug and a kiss to you, babe.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Question away! I guess I'm going to have to move to find a decent caliber. I'm thinking a .38 Special. lol

I'm glad you came along, too. I've often wondered how you feel now that you've been here a while. We had a lot in common after all, didn't we?

[myrrhdusa.livejournal.com]

I still think you are beautiful.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thank you sweetheart. I think you are awesomely beautiful too. I wish I could come to TN and take dance lessons.

[danxsunday.livejournal.com]

Official Reminder From Daniel Sunday:

I think you are lovely

End Official Reminder.

xxx

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thanks for coming by Dan. I really appreciate it more than you know when I learn that you've read my lj.

*hugs*

*sighs and lingers a sec*

[heart-songs.livejournal.com]

I always read what you have to write...I'm just a bad commenter sometimes.

Sincerly,

Fellow Attention Whore ♥

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

But you do speak once in a while. And I notice - and I appreciate it Karri. I think you're awesome.

*hugs*

[anaudicguy.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I prefer to hug because sometimes words are inadequate or even unnecessary.

I hate rejection too, but one good way to look at it is- "well, now I don't have to wonder about that and focus my energies elsewhere." Life's too short to waste your energy, even if you do seem to have an abnormal amount of it ;-P

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

I do? Lethargic, lazy, take it easy me?

[polypolyglot.livejournal.com]

Maybe I should make an icon of me in a cheerleader outfit...

From the brief time we've known each other, you come across as thoughtful, intelligent, personable, passionate, creative, articulate, lovable.

I've said this and other things before, but revel in your bootyliciousness and know that you have a lot of people in your corner :)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thanks Tim.

If you get the cheerleader outfit, don't wear the knickers. lol

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

thanks. *wink*

[empiricimpurity.livejournal.com]

I share your pain. You keep posting girl, I'll keep reading. I totally need attention too, I just wish I had something good to say every now and then. I'll think of something good soon... just make sure you comment on my post too!! ;) BTW, thanks for the support you gave me - I needed it in a bad way.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Honey, I have no problems being a friend to you. But does this mean you've added me to your friends list again? And you know your wife watches my lj, right?

just a reminder

[nmechmpin.livejournal.com]

Greetings,

Quick words of comfort from me to you.

1- Love is still possible.

2- I appreciate what you do.

3- I usually reply when I have something significant to offer.

4- Never forget that love is still possible.

-Lance, xoxoxox

Re: just a reminder

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thanks honey. I do appreciate that.

[weibchenwolf.livejournal.com]

*cuddles*I read. I may not always comment, but I read. Oh and drool.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

*hugs and snugs and sighs*

Thanks babe. I guess some things just beg comment in my mind until I can't take it any more, ya know? I told someone once that there are times when I'm tempted to get childish, and repost something over and over until somebody SAYS SOMETHING! But I try to remember that if I love what I've written, that should be enough.

And you are definitely one of the people who deserve that Thank you. I never have any doubt that you're out there somewhere.

[heathen-worship.livejournal.com]

Ya know? With the amount I've been telling you lately, I was wondering if I still needed to comment and let you know that I think you're a really special person.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

No sweetheart. I know that you abstain from commenting quite often in order to tell me online. There's a sense of permanence to a comment on lj, tho, that I find oddly comforting.

I think its because its a semi-public forum. Thus your words are there for all to see. I can tell someone til I'm blue in the face that someone has told me something online, but its hard to say, go here..., read this. With lj, I can do that.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

You presume correctly darling. And in real life. I just meant the ones that I've have known in real life have done the rejecting. Not so much the ones that I WANT to know that way.

[thehangedman.livejournal.com]

You're not worthless or undesirable. People just suck.

As for the people on your friends list . . . Some of them may not be friends. I don't know all of them, so I can't say one way or the other.

Just for the record: I don't crave attention because I'm on lj, I crave attention because I'm lonely. That's independent of lj, even if it is expressed in my lj. Someone made me start my journal here, and it ended up taking the place of my paper journals, which I had been keeping. My lj is a bit different from those, but that's how it stands.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Its more I crave attention -SO- I'm on lj. In order to get said attention. Because writing in a paper journal isn't nearly so satisfying as posting here and getting comments on occasion.

But I understand. As you have probably seen from some recent comment strings, perhaps you are right. Not everyone ON my friends list is my friend. Eh. I kinda knew that.

[blue-leaf.livejournal.com]

ok this may sound whacked but here goes.
Suppose there is this juicy delicious pear and a guy buys it but
do to some rare genetic disorder he does not have the taste buds that taste pear flavor.So he bites it and thinks "hey this pear sucks"
Does that in fact mean that the fruit is bad or has no value or taste ?
Not at all the pear in reality is very succulent and tasty it just needs the right person to appriciate its deliciousness.
so it seems you my dear have not found a person capable of enjoying what and who you are .Do not try and mold yourself to what you percieve others want.That is a lie to yourself and them and will cause suffering.
Be content in yourself and enjoy your uniqueness.
I myself am what I term a Blue leaf.
I always felt different than others and never really fit in anywhere.
Like a blue leaf on a green tree.I am indeed different but does different mean less? or unattractive? The bother leave in their green hues can not understand ,but that does not make me weird or ugly.
I am glad I am not like everyone else.
I am much more than a just my body.The real me is inside and shines a light from my heart that I know people can see.You too have a light to shine.You are attractive in body and spirit.Do not sell yourself short by what others think.
Hugs.John.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

*sniff*

Thanks John

[blue-leaf.livejournal.com]

Sure you may use it as you wish.
May it benefit and bring happiness to others.
Hugs John.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thanks honey! I'm thinking it will INDEED bring benefit and happiness to others. You are so insightful and I think so highly of you, its about time people on my lj got to see a little more of you.