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[mynewplace]

Okay, somebody wanna explain this? I just got the strangest email, and found myself on page 12 of _elektra 's last lj post.

You guys have got to check this out - see if you're on here! I spotted a couple people I know, most notably phaballa  Which is TOTALLY understandable! Cause she's like ten KINDS of cute/hot/sweet stuff.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/_elektra/290459.html?view=3431067#t3431067

Anybody got any idea who put me on this list?

ETA: You KNOW I'm not going to be anonymous about much. page 17

Comments

[phaballa.livejournal.com]

You're so sweet! I don't know who put you on the list, but damn me for not thinking of it first ;)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

OHMIGOD! You would put me on that LIST? *blushes* damn. *looks away*

I am overcome.

Well that decides it then - I'm goin' back tonight! I'm SO gonna list all the names on my f-list that I'd do. I checked it out, this elektra's not afilliated with our 'friendincommon' or anything. So I suppose its free territory! I know, I know, I shouldn't care, should I? *cares anyway*

[phaballa.livejournal.com]

It's a 12+ page list of comments! don't worry about affiliation, my dear. Plus, about 5 people have listed you. You're like, *obliged* now. And I'll have fun trying to guess which one is you.

I would so put you on my list. Really, my list has little to do with physical attraction and much more to do with the person or their writing. I've got no idea what these people look like and I don't care. I think you've got the biggest balls *ever* for posting your pictures and I only wish I were that brave. Plus, I still think about that Sirius/Ginny fic you wrote and am *floored* everytime.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

FIVE PEOPLE??? OHMYGOD!!!! That's so fucking exciting! I can't wait to go check it out.

I'm thrilled that you love me for my mind. teeheehee! I'd hug you, but, well, we both know how you feel about that! LOL Big balls, huh? I guess that's very true. I don't know where they came from, either. Joseph, I suppose. I really owe him a debt of gratitude for giving me that huge push into self-love. As much as so MANY people love me, it was his devotion that convinced me I had some worth. *dahses off to check out her fuck-list* wheeeee!!!

[phaballa.livejournal.com]

You don't owe him *anything*. Although self-love is never a bad thing, and I'm glad you've embraced it :) Matt always used to tell me that confidence was the sexiest thing a girl could have. Not that I ever had any, but I get that. I'm always much more interested in people who are very self-confident and self-reliant.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

I appreciate that, and I certainly won't argue with you about the self-confidence bit. I do seem to be drawn to people without much sometimes, tho. I often find too much self-confidence to be a turn-off. I mean, one of the things that I love about some guys is the way they are overwhelmed that I would be interested in them. Hmm.

So did you post at _elektra? I am tempted to post non-anonymously. I mean, I've never made much secret about who I'd 'do'. LOL Even before I got this wild hair of exhibitionism. I guess there are a 'couple' I'd have to post anonymously, if at all. I mean, much as I'd love to go back to where I was mentally and emotionally six months ago, I guess I shouldn't admit that I'd still love to do the two (or the three) of them, if she could keep her mouth shut. Geez, that's awful bitchy. Do I sound bitter? Cause I am. lolol

You know, it wouldn't take much, really to bring me crashing down - a few choice disapproving words, from someone whose opinion I highly value, and *poof* I'd be crushed. So the self-love is still very tenuous.

[phaballa.livejournal.com]

Self-love is very tenuous always if it's not internally motivated. Which is why I *cringed* when I read that you 'owe' it to him. But then again, I know how hard to is to make yourself believe you're beautiful and wonderful without outside help, especially if you've spent long years believing the opposite. It's a delicate balance and a struggle. I'm right there with you.

I did post. But I got caught (by Joesph, no less). So now my thread is very obvious... I would've posted as myself but I wanted to make people guess ;)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Tenuous indeed. I understood your reaction to what I said, really. And because I loff you so much I was not inclined to argue. But I'm not going to pretend that I did that on my own, I'm not capable of it. The pretending OR the doing. It took someone else to shake me from my stupor, and that's just the fact of the matter. I'm very aware of the ways my life has changed as a result. 38 years of self-loathing was initiated and fostered by outside influences. That may be why it took an outside influence to help BEGIN to alleviate it.

I'd love to see some of my friends here jump on that bandwagon, and post, even anonymously. Its so much fun.

[phaballa.livejournal.com]

You've got a few more admireres I see ;)

[phaballa.livejournal.com]

I only know like, 2 people so um... yeah ;) I need some fangirls! So, I posted a gift-fic at the H/D comms, and got like a billion comments. Sooooo random, because it was just your basic slashy smut, nothing too special, and yet. Well. Just goes to show that the fandom likes its porn ;)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Really? Hmmm. I can't figure out who that could be, putting me an Neme on there. Strange things.

[nemecic.livejournal.com]

... I wonder about that one too... and *mwah*

[lady-katen-666.livejournal.com]

strange

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Yes. But its quite fun! LOL

[lady-katen-666.livejournal.com]

indeed lol
just.. strange that's all
lol

[adidaschica2323.livejournal.com]

damn...id say thats pretty cool.

[adidaschica2323.livejournal.com]

haha i just read pg 17...nice going!! i should put ppl from my friends list id ummm yeah...but nahhh...none of them would like that much.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

aww, you think not? Well, I didn't put everybody I would do, because there are some that I don't know well enough right now. But I knew that the ones I did list would get a kick out of it. There are a few I would do that I would have to list anonymously. But I am really not into anonymous. So I didn't bother. I'm still trying to wean myself from those people anyway.

[adidaschica2323.livejournal.com]

naw...i have 2 horny guys on my friends list who'd get a kick out of it...but that'd be about it...most of the people on my friends list are too new to fuck lol.