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[mynewplace]

Teaser - Okay, folks - here's one....

Brian was right. This was something I was going to have to 'live with' for a while. It's growing on me.....

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[thehangedman.livejournal.com]

I know it was pretty hard for me letting someone see the first pictures I took. Now not so much.

I'm still not sure how to feel about a person telling me I'm attractive. Nobody ever really has much until recently.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Well, I've never put much stock in my looks, because being an attractive woman has never really benefitted me. I didn't believe I was until sometime in the last few years. So while all these people have told me all my life that I was pretty, I've always felt that it wasn't worth much. I mean, the thing that matters to me - having someone in my life who cares enough about me to stay with me, and who is someone that I can care enough for to stay with - my looks have never brought that.

[thehangedman.livejournal.com]

It's complex for me, and I'm not sure I've worked out completely how I feel about these things. Some of my thoughts and feelings though:

I feel as though my personality, or who I was did win me love, despite how I looked. Then I felt that I was rejected for exactly that: who I was.

Chava made me feel wanted, but she never made me feel at all attractive. I always felt like I was not much to look at, but at least I was a decent fuck.

Now some people tell me I'm attractive, and I'm almost at the point where I can believe that they might really think so. (Though it's hard for me to believe anyone would, of course.)

I feel a little more comfortable with how I look, and even that it's a little more likely that a person would like me for how I looked. But I feel much less likable personality-wise.

Having people tell me that I'm attractive is a bit of a new experience for me, and I'm still trying to work out just what that means to me.