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Teaser - Okay, folks - here's one....

Brian was right. This was something I was going to have to 'live with' for a while. It's growing on me.....

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[cernnunos6669.livejournal.com]

Very yummy indeed. *gropebitefondlemolest*

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

*puuuuurrrrrrr* mmmm bring it ON! mrowr!

[lady-katen-666.livejournal.com]

scrumptious darling

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thanks sweetie. *wink*

[lady-katen-666.livejournal.com]

np can't wait to see more *winks back*

[minofsin06.livejournal.com]

Ooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :-)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

hmmmm, does Rebel see something he LIKES??? Welll, whaddaya know.... xxx

[weibchenwolf.livejournal.com]

*mmms and purrs and wants to...cuddle for some reason. Yep, that's it, just cuddle. Nothing more.*

*wanders off to get a mop for her drool*

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

*Howling laughter* Only Cuddle???? *grabs and hugs and nibbles like mad* you insane thing! You're so CUTE!

[weibchenwolf.livejournal.com]

*giggles and nibbles back and kisses before she thinks about it*Um....yes*gropes*yes...yes just cuddle...really!

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

mmmmmm *joins in the groping* I LIKE this kind of cuddling! LOL

[weibchenwolf.livejournal.com]

*giggles*my kind of cuddling...ooh...just there...

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

*sings* dirty girrrl dirty girrrl *gropes about and purrs in your ear*

[thehangedman.livejournal.com]

Ooh, I like.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I'm curious. Why? I mean, anything about it in particular?

[thehangedman.livejournal.com]

I like the light and the shadows. He does good work.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Yes, he does. Awesome work. I wish you were closer. Because I think you are gorgeous anyway, and when I think of you in his studio, my my my.

[thehangedman.livejournal.com]

Being comfortable naked in front of others takes me a while. Even then, I'm not sure how much I would want someone to take pictures of me that way.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Oh, I don't blame you, really. I still don't know what in Gods name possessed me to do this. Its very out of character for me. Maybe its because I was showing so much of my soul this summer that I got a bit of a thrill from the exhibitionism.

[thehangedman.livejournal.com]

Was it hard for you? It seems like not so long ago that you made a comment to someone about not posting yourself fully nude. Next thing, you're running off to pose in front of someone.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Hmm. Its kind of hard to explain. It WAS hard. But after I got the breast pics out there, and received some fairly decent acceptance regarding them, then it was a bit easier. Its almost as if, once I showed Brian the pics that Scarlett and I had taken, and he was willing to do the fully nude shots, then I had this overwhelming feeling that it NEEDED to be done. For some deep psychological reason. It probably took me an hour or more to get my clothes off once I was there. It wasn't easy. (though it would be easier, should I get a chance to do it again) But I still feel that it was probably the best thing I've ever done for myself. Acceptance from someone OTHER than these people who have seen inside my head will go a long way toward my own self-love.

[thehangedman.livejournal.com]

I know it was pretty hard for me letting someone see the first pictures I took. Now not so much.

I'm still not sure how to feel about a person telling me I'm attractive. Nobody ever really has much until recently.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Well, I've never put much stock in my looks, because being an attractive woman has never really benefitted me. I didn't believe I was until sometime in the last few years. So while all these people have told me all my life that I was pretty, I've always felt that it wasn't worth much. I mean, the thing that matters to me - having someone in my life who cares enough about me to stay with me, and who is someone that I can care enough for to stay with - my looks have never brought that.

[thehangedman.livejournal.com]

It's complex for me, and I'm not sure I've worked out completely how I feel about these things. Some of my thoughts and feelings though:

I feel as though my personality, or who I was did win me love, despite how I looked. Then I felt that I was rejected for exactly that: who I was.

Chava made me feel wanted, but she never made me feel at all attractive. I always felt like I was not much to look at, but at least I was a decent fuck.

Now some people tell me I'm attractive, and I'm almost at the point where I can believe that they might really think so. (Though it's hard for me to believe anyone would, of course.)

I feel a little more comfortable with how I look, and even that it's a little more likely that a person would like me for how I looked. But I feel much less likable personality-wise.

Having people tell me that I'm attractive is a bit of a new experience for me, and I'm still trying to work out just what that means to me.

[o0twisted0o.livejournal.com]

There seems to be a bit of temptress seeping from the veins of this picture...

Wow. That was a really creative thought.

Seriously though. Very alluring and temptressey...

:)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

yes, that WAS creative! lol And that temptress, she's in there. Not everyone sees her, so that's extra points for you. *wink*

[o0twisted0o.livejournal.com]

does that mean I get a cookie?

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Yep. They're handin' em out right and left over there at bignsexy, so here *hands you a warm oatmeal with raisins and black walnuts* mmmmmm

[o0twisted0o.livejournal.com]

mmmmmmm cookies...

go well with the godiva chocolate I bought myself yesterday...

:)

Double raspberry dark chocolate truffles. (In other words... an orgasm for my mouth...)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

ahhhhhh raspberries and chocolate. *gulp* pure orgasmic pleasure. The only thing missing from a certain dark-haired drumgod was a drizzle of hot fudge from thigh to thigh. But there was plenty of other drizzle to lick off. *madgiggles*

[o0twisted0o.livejournal.com]

dirty.

*giggles*

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

oooohhhhh GAWD SO DIRTY!!! *laughslikemad*

[adidaschica2323.livejournal.com]

wow...that's really breathtaking....Brian is very talented. something about the lighting and the scene....like you're lying there waiting for a lover. very very lovely!

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Yes, he's amazing. The scene itself IS breathtaking, had it been me or anyone else. Its lit by the television alone. The experience alone was worth the trip. And I have a feeling there will be other pics from this that make me happy.

[nemecic.livejournal.com]

I love it... the way it is shadowed lives a lot to the imagination which gives to the picture a seductive and alluring quality... very beautiful...

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thank you sweetheart. Its still growing on me. I put it on a disk to give to a friend of mine, (NOT Brent) and found that when I pulled it up on the computer at work, it was far darker, almost to the point where you couldn't see me. I'm not sure why, but I was a bit disappointed. I like it here much better.

[nemecic.livejournal.com]

Well, it is true, so no need to thank me, I just stated the obvious! And, you are right, in my PC at home, it is more dark, here at work is more light (I think that it has to do with what type of screen you have).

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