mynewplace

I wish I understood layouts better. I love the text style of the Novel Approach one, but I'd lie to have either this

or this as the background for my page.

However, I'm concerned that it would make my page too busy. I hate busy.

I'm entering a period of strange tension, most likely hormonal. I can't seem to find what I want to eat, and I want everything. I'm in a lot of pain, and stiff, despite having had incredible sex yesterday. I've got the furnace on, but my hands and feet just won't warm up. And there isn't a comfortable spot in this house - no matter where I tried to sleep last night I woke up sore and miserable. Something's wrong. I hope it goes away soon, whatever it is.

I wish I had the money for something like eHarmony. Of course I probably wouldn't find anyone, but I'm just so sick and tired of this routine. You know, I really should just sit back and enjoy it! If I had someone I could count on to have sex with me on a regular basis, I would be happier while I'm alone. I don't think I'd worry so much about the solitary times, if I could COUNT on someone. It's all the work and effort and constant stress of disappointment that eats away at my contentment. Nothing is ever simple, this I know with most unwavering sureity. (I've got to quit watching these British movies. snicker) It's yet another example of how my life is slipping past me because I insist on all the characters being present before I start to live it. Fortunately one of the things I dreaded most - the idea of sex after 40 - is now not so much a fear as a welcome reality. I was concerned that I'd lose interest, lose flexibility (which I have) and lose my physically enthusiastic reaction. Well, no fear any longer on those accounts. I must instead find some other form of energizing myself. Sex just isn't available enough to meet my needs.