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[mynewplace]

Don't know why I feel this constant pull to LJ. I guess because my YahooMail is so quiet today.

Three nosebleeds in 12 hours time. Thought for sure I was headed to the hospital this morning, but no. Got it calmed down, and Pavanne had some silver nitrate sticks. FINALLY! Self-cauterization is a Good Thing. (tm) 

I'm not in lo-oove
So don't forget it
It's just a silly phase
I'm goin' through...

Song in my head today. Even my musical choices are filled with irony. I'm so in love it's disgusting. Destined to remain forever in love alone. Eh, maybe not. Because today I'm willing to move slowly.

Something is nagging at my brain - these lines need expounding, and I think something is cooking up in my poetic psyche.

You won't give me a place,
So I flit from spot to spot

It's true. I find sanctuary in so FEW places. I'm searching for some way to express that 'running full tilt' feeling that I have most the time, as opposed to the way I come down when I'm with him.

To quote my favorite Pooh

Think, think. Think think think.

Comments

Hmph....

[writerofdreams.livejournal.com]

I know, the sex was amazing! The way he speaks to me is amazing! I do miss him, and not only for the physical I miss his arms around me, I miss his smile, I miss his laugh, I miss everything about him. After we hung out for those few days, and I went back to his house to see him, it was awesome! We just talked, and i actually go to know him. which was pretty cool....I think it takes time, as long as we ahve known each other, we don't know much about each other... ya know? WHo knows.. who am I kidding, I am NOT in love with him, I wish I were, but I think mainly for the purpose he is secure, he has the security that everyone woman I know wants in life. I do enjoy his company though.... well, iffy, part of me says I am written all this much to prove to myself, I do like him a lot, the other said says, shut the hell up you know there is someone else out there, where it will happen you you don't have to wish... so I guess I will start with the second voice in my head ;)

thanks.. write back :) Email if you want... either way, I always enjoy your wisdom on such thoughts!

Re: Hmph....

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

When you write it out, you understand it better. You can write out one thing, thinking you believe it, and come to realize at the end of the page that you DON'T mean it, and you mean something else completely. That's the beauty of writing. You don't HAVE to stick to your word, until you are certain you know what you believe and what you mean.