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[mynewplace]

Don't know why I feel this constant pull to LJ. I guess because my YahooMail is so quiet today.

Three nosebleeds in 12 hours time. Thought for sure I was headed to the hospital this morning, but no. Got it calmed down, and Pavanne had some silver nitrate sticks. FINALLY! Self-cauterization is a Good Thing. (tm) 

I'm not in lo-oove
So don't forget it
It's just a silly phase
I'm goin' through...

Song in my head today. Even my musical choices are filled with irony. I'm so in love it's disgusting. Destined to remain forever in love alone. Eh, maybe not. Because today I'm willing to move slowly.

Something is nagging at my brain - these lines need expounding, and I think something is cooking up in my poetic psyche.

You won't give me a place,
So I flit from spot to spot

It's true. I find sanctuary in so FEW places. I'm searching for some way to express that 'running full tilt' feeling that I have most the time, as opposed to the way I come down when I'm with him.

To quote my favorite Pooh

Think, think. Think think think.

Comments

[insanity-speaks.livejournal.com]

I would feel more of a constant pull today if more people were updating. 6 more hours before I'm out of here for good....and counting. :)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Bleh! I do what I can to keep you entertained, pour out my heart and this is the thanks I get? Oh, never mind me, I'll just go sit in a corner. Maybe some OTHER nice boy will come along and take good care of your poor ...

How's your mother doing, Honey?

[insanity-speaks.livejournal.com]

She is out of the hospital now. She never called to tell me how she was doing, but I got a bunch of junk emails from her so I know she is back to ok again. Her artery was 80% blocked so they wanted to keep a really close eye on her.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

I'm glad sweetie. XXXXX

[amok-about-sex.livejournal.com]

We'd better watch out. We may crack heads with all this flitting about we are doing.
;) I got ants in my pants these days, too. Not the trouble you have, babe. But I have sympathy.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Sympathy-pants. How sweet! I could use a good romp as well, amo.

[blue-leaf.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear about your nose.
Hope it gets better soon .
I know what you mean about the pulling LJ.
I just keep looking in throughout the day.
Gretchen is back to work and I don't start untill next week so I am alone and bored.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Awww! At least you're not up to mischief. LOL

[blue-leaf.livejournal.com]

LOL right now I am just trying not to eat everything in the house .
I get munchies when I am bored.
I am making cheese steaks with fries mushrooms and onion for dinner.
(drools) with some good ribeye.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

GAH!!!! You and your curs-ED Cheesesteaks!! I want I want I want!!

[blue-leaf.livejournal.com]

:0) I would gladly share.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

I know. Mail it.

[el-jefe59.livejournal.com]

If not for LJ I might be in a padded cell now, so I know what you mean about the constant pull.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

It's awesome therapy.

Which is worse?

[writerofdreams.livejournal.com]

You are in a situation where I am the exact opposite, it sucks on BOTH ends! :( That makes it "balanced" right?
You are in love with someone who isn't in love with you or is in denial of being in love with you. ME on the other hand WANT to be in love with this guy who is completely awesome, but my past haunts me and reminds me of the sweet things that always turn sour. At least you CAN love.. Be happy of that I guess...but one of the most perfect guys out there, one of a kind and he wants me with undying passion and yearning, and I am not in love with him, not matter how much I want and try to be. Love can suck.... because kind of like all things in life.... it has to balance a little with its opposite! blah! I am praying you see some light in this.. because I think I used your VENT for me to VENT.... so all in all, lets go get drunk and watch stupid movies and talk about stupid, egotistical guys! ::BIG SMILE::

Re: Which is worse?

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Stephanie, Bobo is not perfect. You don't have much in common, your sense of humor are not very close, you don't have much to talk about. Sweetheart, I remember these things from what you've said on your journal before. Don't mistake great sex for a perfect guy. The perfect guy will have so much in common with you, he'll feel like your long lost brother. Except he'll burn your pants off.

Re: Which is worse?

[writerofdreams.livejournal.com]

I hope my future man burns my pants off!! yeeee-dawwggie!!!

Re: Which is worse?

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

He will sugar. I promise.

Hmph....

[writerofdreams.livejournal.com]

I know, the sex was amazing! The way he speaks to me is amazing! I do miss him, and not only for the physical I miss his arms around me, I miss his smile, I miss his laugh, I miss everything about him. After we hung out for those few days, and I went back to his house to see him, it was awesome! We just talked, and i actually go to know him. which was pretty cool....I think it takes time, as long as we ahve known each other, we don't know much about each other... ya know? WHo knows.. who am I kidding, I am NOT in love with him, I wish I were, but I think mainly for the purpose he is secure, he has the security that everyone woman I know wants in life. I do enjoy his company though.... well, iffy, part of me says I am written all this much to prove to myself, I do like him a lot, the other said says, shut the hell up you know there is someone else out there, where it will happen you you don't have to wish... so I guess I will start with the second voice in my head ;)

thanks.. write back :) Email if you want... either way, I always enjoy your wisdom on such thoughts!

Re: Hmph....

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

When you write it out, you understand it better. You can write out one thing, thinking you believe it, and come to realize at the end of the page that you DON'T mean it, and you mean something else completely. That's the beauty of writing. You don't HAVE to stick to your word, until you are certain you know what you believe and what you mean.