Monday

[mynewplace]

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GOOOOOOD weekend.  Yummy dinner, yummy attention, delightful conversation involving "moved beyond her" and "missed you SO much" and "give me time".     VERY happy sighing today. 


 In other news, found more green plastic in the litter box.  Also found a full-sized complaint lodged directly OUTSIDE the litter box. I mean big-ol' pile o'shit.   But the box is cleaned, the floor is Cloroxed, and the box is repositioned so the poopoo smell won't tempt a kitty to repeat THAT cute trick. 

Found the ex girlfriend's MySpace, as well as the ex-girlfriend's current live-in "Mr. Wonderful" (NOT!) & am not impressed.  Am quite relieved to find she looks more like me than I ever thought. Build-wise more than face wise, although there are similarities.  Am also vain enough to be relieved that I'm prettier.  In my own humble opinion anyway.  

Have taken four half-Lortabs in the last three days. None needed yet today. Must get my own prescription filled to see how well they're going to work at the strength my Doc prescribed.  Am still getting up at 5:30-ish, and waking too often in the night. However, slept much better with my back against Brent's. Also need to call my psych and ask if what I'm taking could raise my blood pressure. (TO 150/104 OMG!!)  We're going to look at another apartment tonight after work.  IN MY NEIGHBORHOOD! HUZZAH!

And that's all for now.

Comments

[padiwack.livejournal.com]

Actually, I think you do "perky" extremely well! :-)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

YAY!! For validation!! ;-D

[amian.livejournal.com]

What, no link to the MySpace so we can all go gawk at her? Hehehe.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thought about it - Would that be evil? lol

[seroquels.livejournal.com]

i was wanting the same thing. No not at all evil, if this post is locked or filtered. I think your f-list has enough sense about them to not leave her nasty messages...afterall she's never done anything directly to you for us to be up in arms about.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

THIS http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=73825106

Is Brent's ex-girlfriend. There are better pics of her on this page:
http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=52888258&albumId=0

That's the guy she's living with now.

[seroquels.livejournal.com]

That's who he was obsessed with? Hmmm....
Well she's no looker imo. You are definitely better looking that she is.

Did you always know she was a larger ladie?

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

No. He said a few times that she was heavy, but I had no idea she was as big as me. Well, almost. She says she's lost a lot of weight, but I don't think he's seen her to know. I don't think she has, judging from those pics.

[seroquels.livejournal.com]

Well, I know there were times you had body issues and were worried that your curves were a hindrance. It, at the very least, has to be comforting to know that your weight probably isn't an issue with him.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

It really IS a comfort. I was honestly worried that he wouldn't introduce me to his mom until I lost some weight. Now I am certain the reason he's waiting is because he knows she'll love me, and he hasn't been ready to deal with that. (If she loved me, he'd have double guilt if he decided we weren't working out. I know it sounds weird, but I just have this hunch, you know?)

[seroquels.livejournal.com]

No, it doesn't sound weird. It sounds like things I've heard before. When a guy is close to his mom, he normally only introduces a g/f when he's certain she's the one who he's going to be with for a long time. Brent, for whatever reason, has been fighting the fact that he loves you and that you two probably are supposed to be together for a long time now. I just hope knowing that it's not a weight thing will help you realize even more that its more him than it ever was you. (I know sometimes that's easy to forget).

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

It's becoming more clear every day that most all the issues are his. I knew that, but his life continues to spiral out of his control even with me by his side. I don't know what he's going to do, but he's going to have to make some changes fast. My jaws are sore from thinking "What are we gonna do?" all morning, and it isn't really a "we" issue.