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[mynewplace]

I went to bed at midnight, feeling mentally hugged. I actually had to wear my TMJ splint to bed, still have it in, because my jaws and cheeks were hurting from smiling so much. I woke up with a smile on my face. And I actually woke up 30 minutes before the alarm went off, in spite of not getting to bed until late. I tickled Scarlett out of bed for a change. And she got all the hugs she needed before she left this morning. I'm taking down my profile from both Matchdoctor and AdultMatchdoctor.  If I want or need to go back, I can, its free, and its no big deal. But I don't want any more contacts from there.

The buck has been coaxed out of the woods, Merry! And for a change, he actually had me eating out of his hand. He's pure lovely inside, and the work its required to restrain myself has been well worth the patience and effort. And I believe it will continue to be so. I might be wrong, have been before. But there are no ties on this one - no strings binding him to anyone else at all. And the blunt honesty with which I sometimes shame myself is something he welcomes.

I'll be wearing this smile all day long.

And in something remarkably related - yet relegated to the back of my mind - Todd is NOT getting out. I found out yesterday that he has to finish his parole in prison. And I was so fucking relieved. It wasn't right with him, the mental connection just wasn't there, and it would have been just the two of us using one another. He had things going on behind my back (or so he thought!) the entire time, and while I was convinced that a sexual partner was all I wanted from him, I would have been hurt if he'd continued what I knew he was doing, and what he denied all along.

Comments

[little-cthulu.livejournal.com]

Im glad someones sleep is sweet. Im happy for you hon, its about tme some sunshine came your way. I hope that you will have a big reveal of it all soon :D

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thanks Kerry. I really appreciate that. We shall see, m'dear, we shall see........

[merrywitch.livejournal.com]

Well done~! Didn't I tell you?

Mamma Merry's matchmaking strikes again!!!!

Blessings and love ......... Merry

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Yes you did tell me. And this is precisely the person that popped into my head when I read your reading. Not only that, but the more we talk, the more I can see how it could be possible for things to move as quickly as they seemed to in that reading. Even though we're taking it slow.

[merrywitch.livejournal.com]

LOL as the old saying goes, I calls em as I sees em! I'm so happy for you. I hope it's my turn one day.

Blessings and love ....... Merry

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

I could wish and pray nothing with more fervor than this very thing - that you would know some similar happiness. I know that this is still very tenuous, but at this point I feel as though anything beyond this little acceptance I've been given would be a gift beyond measure. So I step forward expecting nothing, and content to live on this alone.

[merrywitch.livejournal.com]

The best advice is to go forward with an open heart and hope in your spirit, but set no expectations. What is meant to be will be, but sometimes that depends on your willingness to relax and let it happen.

If it becomes needed I'll do another reading and help guide you a little further.

Blessings and love .......... Merry

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thank you Merry. I pray your generosity of spirit, and that the love that pours out of you is true to the 'rule of three' I hear so much about.

[merrywitch.livejournal.com]

Thank you love. When my Goddess is ready for me to know happiness She'll guide me there. Until then, well, hope and dreams both remain free.

I'm so pleased for you though. It's always nice when She smiles on someone I care for.

Blessings and love ....... Merry

[the-turtle-girl.livejournal.com]

Woohoo! Yay for you! It's so good to see you smiling!

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thanks sweetie. It feels good to smile, too.

[phaballa.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm glad things are working out better for you! I actually don't have any idea who you're talking about here, but as long as you're happy I don't even care. Congratulations and let me know when you get the book :)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

No, and don't feel left out. No one on here knows who I'm talking about, with the exception of one comment I made to Merry, and one brief reference to him in the last very painful entry. This has been something that I've been afraid to even speak of, for fear of speaking too soon and either being wrong or jinxing it somehow. It seems I've been holding my breath for a couple of weeks.

[phaballa.livejournal.com]

I'm just glad you're happy :)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

And I thank you for that.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Uh oh, huh? Steven. I want to talk to you. Is that possible?

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Well I don't have IM at work either. I was gonna email you.

[lady-katen-666.livejournal.com]

wow, that's awesome that you're so happy today. you so deserve it hun. *hugs*

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thanks sweetie. I'm trying to temper it with rationality, but its not working very well. LOL

[adidaschica2323.livejournal.com]

well thats just wonderful ^_^! Love is a many splendid thing:D

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Indeed! Thanks Chica! ^_~

[danxsunday.livejournal.com]

This all sounds great babe. Good to hear of some sunshine coming your way

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thanks honey. I appreciate you stopping by.

[thehangedman.livejournal.com]

Good for you. You'll have to tell me about this person later.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Ok, you've got a deal.

[nemecic.livejournal.com]

I am very happy to see such a good news dearie, and I wish for even better. I think it was about time for something good to come your way! And I did tell you lots of times that this would happen (I am so happy to see that I am right for good things!)

Hugs and Love
Me

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Yes, you were right.

He read my lj last night. And I haven't heard from him yet. I was afraid to show it to him - he's so gentle spirited, and I've overwhelmed him before. I'm scared, but I don't think he's gonna let me down.

Pray for me, Neme.

[nemecic.livejournal.com]

You will hear from him, don´t worry, I have a positive feeling about this! And since he is this nice person and he is so gentle spirited, no matter how overwhelmed he is, I think that you will hear from him.
And I pray for you honey *hugs*