Once again

[mynewplace]

I am feeling the need for hot sweaty sex with, like, a man an'shit. I used to relish this craving because I could often find release if I made a little effort. But that's just not the case any more. Now the need fills me up until I'm angry and short tempered, until the hormone rage gives me a splitting headache. It's breaking my heart to watch this need tear me apart, when just a year or two ago it was newly-discovered and gave me such delight. I've made yet another poor choice, yet looking back I cannot see how any of my other options could have better met my myriad needs.  

Thing is, even if I had options, I probably would reject them. I'm finding myself in yet another situation where I want what I can't have, and I don't want anything else. No, I wouldn't turn DOWN a good fuck, but I wouldn't go out of my way to make the arrangements either. I'm too disconnected from the effort I once put into getting laid, and I'm not willing to have someone over to my house like I used to. Basically, I'm fucked. And not in that nice sweaty way. 





sigh

Comments

[amian.livejournal.com]

I wish I had some awesome advice to lay on you, but honestly I don't know what to say except that I wish you were hung up on a guy who was more deserving of your sweet sexy self.

On a less serious note, I love your icon. That guy is seriously well-hung... and talented! :)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Awesome, eh? I LOVE that icon.

[seroquels.livejournal.com]

i SO feel ya on that. the one guy i want is very much unavailable to me right now, for many reasons. bah!

[theblack69.livejournal.com]

YA some time lust is a good friend but a even more cruel Mistress