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[mynewplace]

What is it?

Okay, okay, its a repost folks. There are a few of you who have been here since June or before. You have read this. But there are so many of you who are new, and who wants to scroll back through ages of stupid memes in hopes of finding out a bit about a person? So I'm reposting this. Because its a crucial part of who I am. And ya'll seem to be a bit curious. LOL

What is this compulsion to expose ourselves? Why do we feel the need to write here, sharing those miserable moments when we're so certain we're alone, in order to feel not quite so alone? People often surround us, people who don't want in, who don't want to know you're alone, don't care, don't see, are alone themselves.  There are people surrounding us as well who often do care, yet we can't let them in. Never, no no no, they over react, they shame us, they tell us we're 'wrong' to 'feel', we 'should'nt', we 'can't', they 'won't' allow us to. Bastards. One and all.

How dare you insinuate that I'm less than what I am?  I could get snarky here, with the "I yam what I yam" stuff or even "Practically perfect in every way."  But as much as I snark, its true. Don't question my feelings. Don't discount them - and if you do - fuck you. I hate being so harsh, but after years of the bullshit, what else can you say?

So this is me. I got tired of completing 'profiles' and I refuse to take out a personal ad. I'd like to think I don't care if anybody gets me any more. But I"m so grateful that a few of you here do. And an even fewer of you want to know more.

I stand back and look
Long dark curls
Green eyes?
Blue?
Yes, sometimes.
They ignite with a sweep.
Try me
Hold a match in your teeth at 30 feet.
Lips that suggest with the slightest curve
Speak silent volumes of eroticism.
A slow easy smile
Great tits (I’ve heard THAT enough)
Quick wit - too quick - I can’t let a tease pass
Sweet-tea words soothe
Vinegar words burn and come all too frequently
That’s me.
Old men and old women
Look at me, they shake their heads and say
"If you had been born 30 years earlier"
"I don’t know what’s wrong with men today"
I smile.
"I don’t either"
As I walk away.
But a little chunky monkey
Will make it all better.

Comments

[o0twisted0o.livejournal.com]

"But a little chunky monkey
Will make it all better.

I prefer peanut butter cup icecream myself. *wink*

Being the curious little thing that I am, I've wanted to know more. I just never ask people about themselves. I sit and wait and hope for them to tell me more.

And I have scrolled back through memes. I just get distracted and start taking them all. Because I get distracted easily. Especially by shiny things. *giggle*

You know I think you're incredible :D

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Well, I've put together a whole new memories section. I'll divide it up tomorrow, then you can snoop about all you want. And I totally understand about the shiny things! LOL I didn't really know you thought I was incredible. I'm way glad. And I think you so rock, doll.

[o0twisted0o.livejournal.com]

I do think you're incredible. You are strong, and you are a mother - a good one from the sounds of it.

Good moms are hard to come by.

*chases the butterfly that just flew by*

Oh yeah, I was commenting. (lol)

You are strong. and you like icecream. And icecream is good.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Silly chicken! You're too cute! *tosses sparkly rhinestone bracelet into corner and watches you scamper off*

*then heads to bed* LOL! Nite kid.

[o0twisted0o.livejournal.com]

lo. nuh nite.

[thehangedman.livejournal.com]

Some things bear repeating.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I agree wholeheartedly.