What's that?

[mynewplace]

What's that sucking sound? 
I'm in a mental vortex, 
and I can't remember how I got out last time. 
The exit is not in the same place now, anyway. 
It seems like I'm spending too much time 
sobbing into my desk, 
or fighting back tears. 
My time off isn't coming quickly enough, 
I need a few hours right now, 
or maybe a day. 
Have to hold it together 
until I see Scarlett again, at least. 
I just don't know if these same techniques - 
holding my breath, 
searching for distraction, 
mindless busy-work 
- I just don't think they're working like they used to. 
I've got to go away, or something. 
Everything here reminds me 
of someone who doesn't want me 
or care about me. 
Why can't I be happy 
with my mom wanting me, 
and caring about me? 
With my dad feeling that way? 
Or my daughter, 
or my sister or something? 
Why can't I just shut up 
and let all those people love me? 

I just don't want it any more.

sugarcoatedbitch911's Daily Virgo Forecast
	Quickie: You're in a holding pattern right now. Wait until there's an opening and then move.
	Overview: A friendship you thought you couldn't live without soon reveals itself to be past its expiration date. Try not to let this bother you too much. After all, it's natural to outgrow people or to have them outgrow you.
Virgo
Daily extended (by Astrology.com) You may wake up feeling a little directionless, but that's not necessarily a bad thing. You are probably in a holding pattern of sorts -- waiting for the right time to come in for a landing, so to speak. There are things moving around you in unpredictable ways, but rather than going forward and hoping for the best, you're smart to stay back and let things settle on their own first. You have a very interesting view on things -- one that you should keep in mind for later.