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Why I do what I do
May. 3rd, 2006 09:24 amI'm so glad LJ is back *kisses computer* I missed it last night.
There's a guy I've been emailing with, who met me when he joined my photo group. Although I make it clear that I'm nude on my group, and he joined knowing that, he has since expressed a strong faith in God. Makes me wonder what he's doing looking at naked women. I've also wondered if my personal faith would clash with his, if/when it ever comes up. He's a bit older than me, and very gentle. So he asks me last night, in an email:
"Not to be nosy or sound too snoopy but why did you put your pictures on the web? NOT that I am complaining either but they are personal and private. Something you should only share with your partner. Please dont be mad at me but I wondered that when I first looked at them. You are a very beautiful woman I was just wondering."
He struck quite a nerve. Didn't make me angry, so much as made me feel that yet again I needed to explain myself, my psyche to yet another man who might, like many other men, choose to reject me due to the twists in my values. After I sighed, repeatedly, I attempted to answer him. While some of you know this, there is a bit of turn-over in my friends list here, and I figured it was time, again, to attempt to explain this to you as well. So I am posting my answer
It may or may not prompt questions, which are always welcome. It may or may not make sense to you, but it doesn't have to. It makes sense to me, and that's really all that matters in this journal. I'm on a journey in my journal to understand myself; perhaps repair some breaks in my mental processes, and learn to appreciate this mind I call my own.
There's a guy I've been emailing with, who met me when he joined my photo group. Although I make it clear that I'm nude on my group, and he joined knowing that, he has since expressed a strong faith in God. Makes me wonder what he's doing looking at naked women. I've also wondered if my personal faith would clash with his, if/when it ever comes up. He's a bit older than me, and very gentle. So he asks me last night, in an email:
"Not to be nosy or sound too snoopy but why did you put your pictures on the web? NOT that I am complaining either but they are personal and private. Something you should only share with your partner. Please dont be mad at me but I wondered that when I first looked at them. You are a very beautiful woman I was just wondering."
He struck quite a nerve. Didn't make me angry, so much as made me feel that yet again I needed to explain myself, my psyche to yet another man who might, like many other men, choose to reject me due to the twists in my values. After I sighed, repeatedly, I attempted to answer him. While some of you know this, there is a bit of turn-over in my friends list here, and I figured it was time, again, to attempt to explain this to you as well. So I am posting my answer
( HERE )
It may or may not prompt questions, which are always welcome. It may or may not make sense to you, but it doesn't have to. It makes sense to me, and that's really all that matters in this journal. I'm on a journey in my journal to understand myself; perhaps repair some breaks in my mental processes, and learn to appreciate this mind I call my own.
