YeGADS!!! What a LIFE!

Okay, so I came to do this:

sugarcoatedbitch911's Daily Virgo Forecast
	Quickie: You can just let go! Today you will find the strength you need to finally move on.
	Overview: Why are you so intent on chasing someone who's so clearly bad news, especially when they are clearly a repeat of a pattern from your past? Before you dive into this disaster, examine your motives -- your real motives.
Virgo
Daily extended (by Astrology.com) One great thing about you is that, once you get wind of a problem, you start building renewable energy-producing windmills. Yes, you have a knack for turning trouble into an opportunity for better, healthier, more efficient living. And, in addition to the fact that you are awfully cute, this is one of your most awe-inspiring talents. So whatever not-so-great news comes your way, don't forget: You'll figure it out, and it will be even better than before.

I always get the overview in my email in the morning. And reading it prompted me to post it here, because I don't think I'm doing this - I'm managing to mentally move beyond the dipshit. It is hard to do, because it requires a lot of hours of tears while I remind myself of the mean things he's said to me. But I'm managing to do it, and moving my mind on to the possibility of solitude again - with a more positive attitude about it. 

There are a lot of strange connections in the Daily Extended forecast - one of the main articles in this morning's paper was about the windmills in Tucker County. I have ALWAYS wanted to see them! I think they'd be amazing. Then there's the 'awfully cute' reference - which only Gymbo will understand. Somebody told me I was cute last night, while dismissing my disagreement with him. Hisss

Okay, so I come here to make this entry, and get sideswiped by two men, almost at once. The first one? OMG He's got my FULL ATTENTION. 

( He said: )

This DELICIOUS man WANTS TO COME AND CLEAN MY HOUSE!! AND SERVE ME!! BWAAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAA  What strikes me as most strange of all in this situation is how willing I am to let this man do my house work and possibly service me physically. You see, I always try to downplay my dominant side, because I don't WANT to be the Dominator in a relationship.  And I USE that part of my personality every day, both at work and at home. But it intrigues me. And if he's serious enough to follow through, then I'm going to do it. I hope I don't dissolve into tears halfway through. lol

Okay, so the other guy. Well, I've had a lot of issues this week with no one wanting me. I have two tickets to see Unknown Hinson live in Charleston at a local bar. This is the guy who does the voice of Early Cuyler on Squidbillies, a show on Adult Swim. I've never seen the show, but I've known about Unknown for a while now. Brent introduced me to his humor, and one of his office buddies is going to be playing in the opening band. I have two tickets, and no one to go with me. And because Jamie is going to be there, and Brent MIGHT be there, how can I show my face alone?   (blairly, don't suppose you'd wanna go??)

Well, the other guy I talked to today is a local guy. He's on my yahoo group, and thus is ONE of the local guys who couldn't bother to participate in the poll. He talks to me about once every two weeks, saying he's interested in me, wants to meet me, blah blah blah, but doesn't really make any effort, you know? He has my phone number, and doesn't call. He has my email address, and doesn't bother to drop me a line. So he tries to start in this morning on how HE'D like to come and see me, and makes the mistake of telling me "I gotta be honest with ya and Im sorry if this freaks you out but Im jacking off to your pic right now" SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGH.  

Yeah. 

I went off.  

Danny, i'm gonna be honest with you in return. The poll, the group, everything is about to be done away with. I'm about to eliminate ALL OF IT - because of this very thing. No one does anything except sit around and jack off at me. That's all I'm good for to anyone on this fucking computer, ESPECIALLY the local men. Most of them can't even bring themselves to talk to me. And here you are, talking to me, and this is what you have to say?  Well you might as well just save the fucking pictures, danny. because i don't know how much longer they're going to be online. and you can pretend I'm where ever you want. because that's all you're ever going to see. that's all ANYBODY is ever going to see.

My god. I'm SO fucking sick of it. 

If The King And I, with Yul Brynner and Deborah Kerr hadn't been on, I probably would still be ranting. But that movie makes me cry, and I love it very much. Thank God for AMC. lol

Hmmm. I wonder if the forecast was more about moving beyond the pictures?