Full Bitch Mode

Very few of you have seen me in "Full Bitch Mode".  Well, here's your chance to see exactly how it works.

I had a friend. I liked him a lot. We talked on instant messenger several times a week. Sometimes, when I was depressed, I wouldn't talk to him, but I avoid everybody during those times. Common knowledge. I was starting to kinda take him in, and we even emailed a couple of times. Not so unusual for me, but apparently unusual for him. His name is Josh.

Well, Josh disappeared. April 22 was the last time I heard from him, and I started to get worried. I emailed him, I left him offline messages, and I even mentioned it here. I posted comments in a couple of people's journals, asking if they had heard from him. And I heard back today from a girl who didn't know him well, but said she got a comment from him on May 3.

Here's the Full Bitch part.  - I emailed him just now:

Dear Josh - Well, I got worried. And I asked around about you, to two different women on your friends list. Heather, (theheathen) got a comment from you on May 3. So you were online on May 3, and thus saw my email. I won't assume that you saw my instant message, but I will suppose you probably did. What this tells me is that you have decided to end this friendship and never speak to me again.  I'm disappointed, and a bit disgusted that you'd choose to be such a coward, when you know how understanding I am, and you surely must remember how hard I've tried to be your friend in the past. This hurts, Josh, far more than you lying to me ever hurt me, and I won't tolerate any further pain. Don't contact me, take me off your IM list, and take me off your friends list on lj. We're done.

 

Anita

 

Silence hurts me more than blunt honesty.

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Have you ever encountered someone online, or on lj, who immediately made your grind your teeth? Who be-bopped into your 'life' and started chatting away as if they'd just come back from a potty break, instead of being a new aquaintance? Someone who didn't quite fit into your realm of friends, who perhaps was too immature, but who started offering advice and intimacy immediately upon meeting you, rather than waiting a bit to see what you were like?

I'm trying my damnedest to be mature and distant, to overlook things that grate on me in the interest of preserving someone's feelings. I'm trying to be cool and urbane. Despite my inner child screaming "Go away!", I am being a magnanimous adult. And no, if you ask me if I'm talking about you, I will not admit it. So stop being paranoid. Its not you.

heh

Go away.