Friday night
Jun. 29th, 2007 10:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mynewplaceScarlett is in bed, and I'm headed that direction. I've been dozing most the evening, and talked with Brent for about 20 mnutes. He found a new apartment, ten blocks from the office. Hopefully he'll save at least $100 a month in gasoline, natural gas bills and rent. He's very excited. He offered to stay for dinner tonight in order to have more of the meatloaf I made yesterday. It was my first in more years than I can count. And it was tehbomb. He was quite enamoured. Of the meatloaf.
I am so afraid that he is rushing this relationship out of a sense that I'm his only option. I know that's a bad thing to think, I just keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. It's dropped too many times in my life for me to have faith in this change in him. I'm still scared. I will be for a while, I think.
Am feeling a bit better about the drive tomorrow. I don't like driving on the Turnpike, but I always manage with only minor panic attacks. I'm sure tomorrow will be the same. I completely forgot to pick up Scarlett's medicine this evening. I'm just not fully functioning right now. So perhaps I should go to bed.
I am so afraid that he is rushing this relationship out of a sense that I'm his only option. I know that's a bad thing to think, I just keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. It's dropped too many times in my life for me to have faith in this change in him. I'm still scared. I will be for a while, I think.
Am feeling a bit better about the drive tomorrow. I don't like driving on the Turnpike, but I always manage with only minor panic attacks. I'm sure tomorrow will be the same. I completely forgot to pick up Scarlett's medicine this evening. I'm just not fully functioning right now. So perhaps I should go to bed.
