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[mynewplace]

Sam's been sick. No word yet, but when I get no word, it's the same as hearing 'no'.

I think I'm going to take the day off anyway. It's 70 degrees out there right now, and supposed to be the same tomorrow.

I wish this beautiful weather could lift my spirit. There are just too many noes in my life right now for it to have enough effect. I wish I could go home RIGHT NOW and soak up some sun, blank my mind for a bit. Funny, normally I need sex to blank my mind. I'm pretty certain that being outdoors would do it today.

In other news, the MySpace guy who is hawt and local asked for my phone number. I was reluctant, but did give it to him. It took him several days to read his email there on MySpace, I can only imagine it will take him just as long again this time.

I don't know how to be a friend with someone I find sexually attractive. I'll probably fuck this up.

I want to change my profiles everywhere, to reflect a different attitude - less of a 'come up and see me sometime' and more of a 'I deserve to be wined and dined'. But I'm afraid that will cause the contacts to halt altogether. Wonder if that means I should close the yahoo group? I don't know. How much assumption of sluttitude is based on naked photos, and how much is based on "I like to fuck. What's your name?"


And in my daily Horoscope:

Virgo

Daily extended (by Astrology.com)
Someone you haven't seen or heard from in what seems like forever has had you on their mind for a while now -- just like you've been thinking about them. So what have you two been waiting for? Well, the sentimental Moon, for starters -- the ruler of emotions. They're as potent as they can possibly be right now, so go ahead. Give 'em a buzz or send an email. Isn't it time to reconnect? Keep the conversation light and easy -- as much as you can, until one of you finally 'fesses up to the fact that being apart has just been hell for both of you.


NO. I'm not gonna do it. It IS hell for me, but I'm not. Goddammit.

Comments

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[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Good advice.

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[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Mine either.

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[gymorama.livejournal.com]

I was thinking along this like... "I'm a great fuck, put in the effort to find out."

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[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

I like that one too!!!

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[gymorama.livejournal.com]

So do I as a reader 8^)

[bordendazed.livejournal.com]

Truly wishes he could wine and dine you (literally and physically) even if just for only for one night...

Take care, remember to put on sunscreen on that supple skin, and enjoy!

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Eh, I don't live that far. But the wife might object. After all, it's the married ones who seem to know how to treat me best.

[bordendazed.livejournal.com]

Well, I do run thru the north tip of WV to get to the PA Turnpike occasionaly. And things with the wife have pretty much been settled with a "don't ask don't tell" (and don't be stupid)... For example, I have hotel reservations for something I am doing up north in May on my own, and still keep kicking myself to go and take that road trip I have been talking about for months, but I wanted that to be west, not east. Who knows. Email if you want.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Ahh. Wheeling is lovely in May.

[bordendazed.livejournal.com]

Yea. I recall that's a few miles of 80 mph, lovely with the roofs out, and the tunes cranked. May will have me near the Great Lakes, but then there's always those warm April showers...

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

I'm anxious to experience warm April showers in the shelter of my back deck. I'm thinking nude at night might be nice.

[bordendazed.livejournal.com]

Wish I could either hold an umbrella to keep your hair dry, or convince you to romp playfully in the grass, and then shower up later...

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

I'd be offended if you held an umbrella while I was naked and unheld. lol There are no lights out back, just trees and grass - and neighbors watching I bet.

[(Anonymous)]

Thilly gurl, it only takes one hand to hold an umbrella... :)

Unless they have night vision goggles, all they may experiance is giggles moans and sighs. And I'll bring the mini flashlights to get back inside with.

Hmmm, now I have something in my mind that's going to be playing over and over for a while, but I gotta get going now, but yea, what fun it could be...

[gymorama.livejournal.com]

nude outdoors in spring before the bugs come out is always nice. Talking about night nudes makes me think of the Addams Family Moon bathing

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

it would be fun, I think

[gymorama.livejournal.com]

it IS fun

[theblack69.livejournal.com]

Hey there is nothing wrong with I like to fuck. But it is better to be like hi I am ______, I like long walk on the beach, moon lite picknicks, fancy glass art work, and have a life. Plus I Love to fuck...

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

I take that into consideration.

[adidaschica2323.livejournal.com]

naked pics = sluttitude depends on how conservative the viewer is, and how they view nudity in general. my advise, if you want to give the impression that you're not looking for a fuck buddy, don't link back to your yahoo community, or dont mention it to them. most men ive known havent had a problem with sharing risque pics, but knowing that almost anyone could see the girl they're after naked can be a big turn off. of course unless they're exhibitionist themselves.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Good point. I will keep it in mind, and might take the links off my public profiles. Keep it a controlled invite type thing.

[adidaschica2323.livejournal.com]

thats also a good way to ensure your pics arent out there on a site somewhere.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Well, they can't join until I approve them. If I don't recognize them from somewhere specific, I email them and ask them to identify themselves before they are allowed to join. And if they don't answer? I've denied a few. Most of them have an established presence in livejournal, or on myspace, or at least a full profile on yahoo.

[adidaschica2323.livejournal.com]

ur not stoopid! of course you're not, just didnt want what happened a while back to happen again.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Oh, I know. But inside somewhere, I just don't care. If people steal my pics and make fun of me, I don't give a shit. I might bitch about it, but in the end it will mean very little to me. Because there are enough people who think otherwise to keep me satisfied.