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Okay, so I know I've been really negative lately. While I'm tempted to say bite me, and deal, I won't.
I saw my psychiatrst yesterday. He increased my Lamictal to 150 mg, and gave me an antidepressant. Apparently Lamical is a mood stabilizer. I wasn't sure, because my mood never seemed to be any more stable, I just had some extra energy when the pill kicked in. I took my pills like a good girl last night, and my eyes popped open at 5:30 a.m. like spring-loaded blinds. I've had that drive I remember from last time the pills worked, but the sour mood hasn't lifted yet. I hope it does, I'm fucking sick of being a sullen bitch.
I'm also sick of being a "wonderful woman". I want to be a LOVED woman, not a wonderful one.
I'm going to be on t.v. tonight, I think. Our local PBS fund drive is currently underway, and kokopelleigh asked me to tag along with. So I said sure. I'll see Brent tomorrow, for the rest of the weekend. Or maybe I'll sneak over there tonight, after I get done on t.v.
Or maybe not.
I dunno.
I saw my psychiatrst yesterday. He increased my Lamictal to 150 mg, and gave me an antidepressant. Apparently Lamical is a mood stabilizer. I wasn't sure, because my mood never seemed to be any more stable, I just had some extra energy when the pill kicked in. I took my pills like a good girl last night, and my eyes popped open at 5:30 a.m. like spring-loaded blinds. I've had that drive I remember from last time the pills worked, but the sour mood hasn't lifted yet. I hope it does, I'm fucking sick of being a sullen bitch.
I'm also sick of being a "wonderful woman". I want to be a LOVED woman, not a wonderful one.
I'm going to be on t.v. tonight, I think. Our local PBS fund drive is currently underway, and kokopelleigh asked me to tag along with. So I said sure. I'll see Brent tomorrow, for the rest of the weekend. Or maybe I'll sneak over there tonight, after I get done on t.v.
Or maybe not.
I dunno.
