DRAMA!!!!

[mynewplace]

Okay, I'm ready to beat him. Well, I was, but I've gotten over it, and no nosebleed to show for it yet. Yay me.

The dipshit down the hall started in on me at 8 fucking 40 this a.m., wanting to know "what the other night was all about".  I sat through yesterday unaware if he was even in the building and half ready to jump out of my skin because I didn't know - while he laid at home probably stoned out of his gourd. Then he comes in here and starts in on me before I've even sat down at my desk.

Our email 'discussion slash argument' went on for four fucking pages until about three p.m.. Some of the kinks seem to be ironed out, but I've been relegated back to 'hang out buddy', and I'm not sure how well I'm gonna deal with that. Since I have some one to fuck this weekend, I might be okay for a while. But next time he pins me to the wall and begs me to stay with him, I'm gonna pull out all the girlie stops. I'm gonna cry and make him tell me how much he wants me and how pretty I am and how much I drive him crazy before I capitulate. And I'm gonna make him swear that he'll touch me this time, because I NEED HANDS ON ME!!!! DURING SEX GODDAMMIT!!!!!

Comments

[heart-songs.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't even come close to letting him hurt me again if I were you. He just doesn't deserve you.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I know. I'm hoping it won't come to that again. And who knows, by next weekend I might just back out altogether. I can't expect every friend to love me like I love them. I'm getting tired of the rules and the constant push and pull. At this point I'm so pissed over other things that everything is falling apart, you know?

[qryb.livejournal.com]

he makes me so damned angry.
he isnt worthy of your sex, let alone your affection.

-j

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

I know. And I'm glad that I've got this date tomorrow night. I'm going to do better.

[qryb.livejournal.com]

i'm glad too. i hope its fucking amazing, girl. *hug*

-j

Time to Move On

[(Anonymous)]

Anita,
Your only hurting yourself, get away and stay away! Forget this person once and for all and get something real!!!!

[yohimberedhead.livejournal.com]

the girly approach wont work. it only makes you look like the cage, when we both know your not, she is. sometimes you just have to learn to accept the suck ass rules as they have been laid down and learn to enjoy what you do get while you get it, and when its gone, go out and play with other toys.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

I don't think I'll enjoy sex like that again. So I might turn down what I get offered. I'm having some serious second and third thoughts about maintaining this friendship.