...............................................................................16 Days Left

Something good I forgot to mention, so I'm adding it in here. When I got to work this morning there were 33 messages in my yahoo inbox!!! YAY!!! I felt so LOVED!!! I have very little to say today. My sleeping patterns are a bit fucked. I've been waking up around 4 a.m. every morning this week, and had difficulty going back to sleep. The sadness is creeping over me, and I'm trying to ignore it. So far so good.

Scarlett comes home tomorrow. I hope I can scrape up some cash, but I doubt it, so we'll have to do a lot of things around the house. I've got hamburgers and charcoal, mmmmmmmmmm.

Howard just laid open another piece of himself to me in an email he sent to Lexie. I hate this feeling of powerlessness and futility that comes from being friends with someone on line when I want nothing more than to grab that person and hug them for about a week. It would be much like hugging my cat, I figure. About two seconds of tolerance followed by a lot of squirming and wriggling to get away. I can't think about that, it makes me cry. So on to the other stuff.

I was tagged by randomsnarking I am a good sheep and will thus complete this meme.

List ten things that make you happy, then tag six friends:
(These are in some semblance of the order in which they make me happy)

01. Sex.
02. Curling up on the sofa with a man who isn't afraid of me.
03. Physical contact, but only with select people.
04. Talking with my kid about important stuff in a way that my mother never could - calmly. Especially being able to talk to her about boys and sex and stuff.
05. Being surrounded by my aunts and uncles and especially the cousins.
06. A full moon.
07. Going out to eat when someone else pays.
08. A marinated, well-cooked steak, just a bit more than medium rare.
09. The Sunday Fox TV lineup - especially when Arrested Development was on
10. Steely Dan (yes, and Dire Straits, and J. Geils and all my 70's and 80's music)

I'm not gonna tag anybody. bleh