Thanks Phil. I do fight the vacuum, all the time. I grow quite intense, mostly because I am forced to endure so much alone, with very few periods of face to face physical contact or attention, and this is the only thing that truly eases my mental and physical pain.
I am worth the cost. Even if no one ever again sees fit to pay the price of time with me, I will retain my worth. But I've said before, and feel it bears repeating, that no matter how convinced you are of your own worth, unless someone else acknowledges it in a manner that you find fit, then you are just like a Sakajawea ground into the dirt by the side of the road. Still worth something, but unspent. THIS is where my true pain lies. In the solitary desire for someone to share my life with, and the recurring despondence at finding no one.
I've been to your journal several times Phil. It's interesting, but I don't see any entries come up on my friends page when I review it. I have very little to say during these dark days; I do comment on others journals on occasion, but I don't review 'back issues' much.
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timeasmymeasure
Re: Silence
Date: 2006-01-05 02:54 pm (UTC)I am worth the cost. Even if no one ever again sees fit to pay the price of time with me, I will retain my worth. But I've said before, and feel it bears repeating, that no matter how convinced you are of your own worth, unless someone else acknowledges it in a manner that you find fit, then you are just like a Sakajawea ground into the dirt by the side of the road. Still worth something, but unspent. THIS is where my true pain lies. In the solitary desire for someone to share my life with, and the recurring despondence at finding no one.
I've been to your journal several times Phil. It's interesting, but I don't see any entries come up on my friends page when I review it. I have very little to say during these dark days; I do comment on others journals on occasion, but I don't review 'back issues' much.