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[mynewplace]

FRIDAY

I cut into a pomogranate, and took a piece to Scarlett. I popped a seed into her mouth, and told her to ignore the bit in the middle. Of course she loved it, and sat there biting the rubies until sparkling juice was running down her chin. I watched, dazzled at the clarity, the pure redness that is so rare. I smiled, and thought of Peagan. I talked with him briefly. He was subdued, surprised to see me I'm sure. And even more surprised that he didn't have an opportunity to approach me, I pounced on him with the ferocity of Ming strung out on catnip. He was surprisingly sweet. And even more surprisingly, I was sweet back, offering him my psychic services with a clarity and accuracy that astounded me. He said "God I love you" and I felt a crooked smile play across my face, but that was all I felt. I told him "declarations of love are always welcome, though viewed with a bit of skepticism. I've been burned a lot this summer." Talking with him, then being reminded by something as simple as a pomogranate, made me long for my innocence. I wish I were that person I was when I met him, unjaded yet worldly-wise, as yet unscarred. Even the pain he put me through was minor in comparison. And I thought I'd die with it. Almost makes me wish I could go back to fantasy land, back where I knew that someone so perfect didn't really exist, was merely a figment of our combined imaginations. But then, had I stayed there and not experienced the reality that was the petulant god-like one, I would never have come to know myself so intimately, this creature within who aches for nothing more than to be possessed and cherished.

Thus, here I sit on Saturday morning, eating the last of the pomogranate and writing what I think for all of you to see. I'm glad I have you. And I'm grateful for this blog, for I can see that it may well save my sanity in this months I dread that lie ahead. Its nice to have a place to do some self-analyzation, lay it out for others to see, and feel validated by their response. And just as importantly, its nice to have a place where I can see what other people are thinking, and not spend hours turned within myself until I'm blinded, unable to find the way back out into the world.

Comments

[little-cthulu.livejournal.com]

How beautifully written. Makes me think of clean kitchens with the sun glittering in through the window and the smell of laundry as the tumble drier hums.heartwarming

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

thanks sweetie.

[o0twisted0o.livejournal.com]

hmm. I've never had a pomegranate. I've been thinking of buying one and trying it. Now I want to even more. I love red.

This was nicely written. I respond to writings that pay attention to color (and I know my response is *all* that matters... lol) and this had color, yay!

And, I'm glad I have you too. Because you constantly remind me that I am strong, and I shall do the same for you. You are strong. (Yay for validation!)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

LOL! So as long as I spout color references, I have your attention? You're so cute. (colbalt) And bless you for the validation! (snowywhite) Please pass the double-stuffs.

[o0twisted0o.livejournal.com]

*giggles*

I'm nuts, I know. I just adore color!

*hands over the oreos*

They're fucking with my blood sugar anyways. Wednesday it was way too high. Then today it got way too low. Mrargh! I knew those damn cookies would catch up to me.

There's less than a third of the package there left. lol. The little piglet (me) ate them all.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

eh,I can only handle a few. Maybe they'll cheer me up.

[slytherinsheirx.livejournal.com]

Ohhh... red... my second favorite colour... *unconsciously licks lips*

I have a drabble for red somewhere... got bored at work and spent some time thinking about it once. lol.

*hugs* I know a little of what you feel hun, possession and the feeling of bein cherished.. isn't that what we all really want?

You know everybody here is here for you, I've said it countless times before and I feel I should say it again because it is such a true statement.

As long as you have an outlet Sapphy dear.

*hugs and kisses*

Your ~*Heir*~

*takes a little time to create a trail for her to follow, leaving a small scrap of paper with the words "Heir was here, hun." lovingly written on it*

*shrugs* I let my positive side out to write that. (Sort of an in-house thing that isn't it?)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thanks for letting out your positive side... You can only imagine how much I needed to see it this evening...

[slytherinsheirx.livejournal.com]

*hugs and kisses*

[soul-schism.livejournal.com]

Nicely written.

I'm not much of a red fan but I supposedly look good in it. Who knows? You write with a very descriptive style. When do I get to steal you away and make use of some of those talents?

to be possessed and cherished . . . indeed, truer feelings were never spoken. To be wanted, needed, loved, and desired.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

I am at your disposal Shane - although I'm wondering what exactly you will do with me!!

I find it remarkable that so many people have seized upon the color in this piece, and made little mention of the dynamic that lies beneath. I believe I must be quite transparent.

[soul-schism.livejournal.com]

Hee hee hee

wouldn't you like to find out?

I caught the undercurrents to your post, but I was not sure how to address them as I do not know all of the players involved.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Yes, I WOULD like to find out. Name your torture, sweet thang. Reading? Editing? Nibbling your ear?

Uh Huh

[so-dom.livejournal.com]

I so relate to this: And just as importantly, its nice to have a place where I can see what other people are thinking, and not spend hours turned within myself until I'm blinded, unable to find the way back out into the world.

I'll be your crying shoulder - I'll be love-suicide... Mmm that's a nice song - can you name that tune?

"And I'll be the greatest fan of your life..."

SoDom

Re: Uh Huh

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

No, 'fraid I don't know that one. Its a nice thought tho. Reminds me of someone who was once my greatest fan.... (I will NOT cry)

Like your ginger plug there. *evilchuckles* That description in male_dom soooo made me want to try one. But not alone.

Re: Uh Huh - hijacking your thread lol

[so-dom.livejournal.com]

So - I decided to comment back to you - but we were way off topic I think in that maldedom thread. So? I hopped over here as I was too lazy in the moment to do a specially filtered post - *wink*

You said: No, 'fraid I don't know that one. Its a nice thought tho. Reminds me of someone who was once my greatest fan.... (I will NOT cry)

Like your ginger plug there. *evilchuckles* That description in male_dom soooo made me want to try one. But not alone.

Ok - song is called "I'll Be" by Edwin Mccain - it's a torchy song for sure - but pretty and poignant too... Which I'm not always crazy about.

Figging is something I want to get experienced a whole lot more with. If I know me at all? I'd guess I will... *low shallow chuckle*

See you - SoDom

Re: Uh Huh - hijacking your thread lol

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Hijack away - troll about, commenting randomly. I welcome the attention *points to self* Attention whore, remember? LOL

Re: Uh Huh - hijacking your thread lol

[so-dom.livejournal.com]

I generally like whores...

Whores

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

With a heart'o'gold even. Very burnt, broken heart. But golden nonetheless.

[nemecic.livejournal.com]

Colors. You know that I usually don't like warm colors, (I am all for cold ones, blue, green etc.), but this line
"...biting the rubies until sparkling juice was running down her chin. I watched, dazzled at the clarity, the pure redness that is so rare..."
stroke a chord within me.
We love you too honey, that's all I am going to say...

Hugs
Me

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

thanks sweetheart - I've missed you.

[nemecic.livejournal.com]

Missed you too honey, all of you...

Hugs
Me

[tw1stedwh1spers.livejournal.com]

I saw this wonderful new product in the grocery store the other day--it's this little bottle of 100% juice, half pomegranite juice and half cherry juice and the bottle even has this lovely Venus of Willendorf shape to it. And all I can think of is dribbing this wondrous juice all over your breasts and then licking it off... :)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

OHMYGOD! WE DRINK THAT! Its called POM Wonderful, and I have an empty bottle before me as I write! This was the pom-blueberry mix. DELISH!! And I believe that if you continue along that line of thinking then I am going to be begging you to make a road trip. Or let ME make one.....mmmmmmmmm New Orleans in winter..... makes me SHIVER and take deep shuddery breaths! You wicked wicked thing, making me purrr like this....

[tw1stedwh1spers.livejournal.com]

That's a road trip I would SO very much be looking forward to! I could put the driving time to good use trying to sort out which lovely naughty thing I'd want to do to first--but then, I'd probably be so distracted I'd crash into something. :)

Of course, now that I think about it, I think I'd be deliriously happy just to hold you close, listen to your heartbeat, feel the rise and fall of your breathing with your warm naked skin against mine, just listening to you purr...