Monday

[mynewplace]

 Answer to a writing prompt on the West Virginia Poetry Group:

Where does my creativity come from?

I’ve always thought my life would make a novel
With all my family’s foibles and exploits.
But I’ve put off the writing ‘til I’m older,
To keep from hurting loved ones I’d expose. 

I had no muse.

Then I awoke from drug-inflicted stupor,
Discovered dormant and intense desire.
Peccadilloes filled my thoughts,
Discretion was my byword,
Repeating the imprudence of my youth.

My muse was fiction.

So I began to write what I imagined
And even started living it a bit.
Life’s consistence was impassioned melancholy
Sating my body, discarding my soul.

Then I met my muse.

Dark, mysterious, twisted.
Passionate amusing and in pain.
I prodded, I persisted
I worked magic to gain his body
As he invaded my heart.
The heart he did not want
Attempted to discard
Clung to him
Despite my protests.

I told God I couldn’t handle
Giving all my love
To someone who despised it.
Fruitless gain.
But God said “Tough. He needs this.
Give him MY love.
He will accept it through no other vessel.
You are chosen.”

I fought
I cried
I stomped my feet.
I prayed
I lit a candle
Two or three.
He was the slowest beast
But he recovered.
Now his love gives me
What I’ve always needed
Wanted

Craved.
Now he fully comprehends
What he has gained.
My muse wrung words from me
Compelled to put my guts upon a page.
Now my heart rests.

Although if I have to wait until I’m 45 to get married,
I’ve threatened to kill him in his sleep.

Comments

[manifestress.livejournal.com]

awesome...

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I had just pulled up your latest entry where you said you were working on poetry - so I'm off to your journal to check it out!

[ar-wahan.livejournal.com]

I love it, and especially the unexpected last line.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

I always feel the need to add something funny or odd to my poetry. I think it's because that's the way my mind works anyway.

I was so sorry to hear about the UU congregation in Tenn. Will your church be doing anything for them? Bake sale, collection or such?

[ar-wahan.livejournal.com]

Cards, but not right away. Alison was on line with a lot of other ministers, and the word is that the Tenn. congregation needs to tend to "in the minute" stuff, and having to respond to emails and cards right now would be too much. The president of the Unitarian Universalist Association is on his way there (if not already there), as well as a UUA Trauma Response Team.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

That's understandable, and good to hear. If there is any money taken up, etc., please let me know. I'd like to contribute.

[ar-wahan.livejournal.com]

That's very sweet of you. I re-read what Alison wrote and she has already sent a note. Here is a little more from her email (I'd forward the whole thing to you via email, but your addy is on my other computer):

"An additional disturbing aspect of this attack is that the gunman purposefully chose a UU Church because he is anti-liberal and knew where to find liberals on a Sunday morning (I am paraphrasing from an article I read on-line from the Knoxville News.) The possibility of violence in our lives as liberal and progressive UUs is greater than we might want to acknowledge, and while I do not want to suggest that we become overly vigilant to that possibility and compromise our principles and ideals, we must, nevertheless, remain aware and take prudent precautions where we can.

"This is such sad and shocking news. I truly wish there was more we could do. As I speak to some of you on the phone we are thinking that perhaps in a few days an outpouring of our love, in the form of more notes from you (in addition to mine), might be a fine and appropriate thing to send on to the Tennessee folks."

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

It's frightening - I have to say as a product of the conservative community I find it makes me angry, and I tend to place blame on the religious right wrong as a whole, rather than one sick individual. He would not even be seen as "sick" by some, dare I say many Fundies.

[ar-wahan.livejournal.com]

A relief fund has just been set up by the UUA....

http://www.uua.org/giving/donatenow/117168.shtml

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[alfabet126.livejournal.com]

Love it!

Woo - only one day late in commenting. :)

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Ah, I don't care WHEN, as long as you speak up if you like something.

[alfabet126.livejournal.com]

Your poems have a quirkiness to them that I just love. A sense of humor infusing the seriousness really resonates with me.

Of course, I think I often have an inappropriate sense of humor. :P

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

I KNOW my sense of humor is inappropriate, so that's likely why you get it. And why you like it! I can't help it most times, I just have this funny stuff come into my head and I am compelled to write it down.

[alfabet126.livejournal.com]

Maybe I need to start writing. I often lack the brain filter and say inappropriate things much to the chagrin of my husband. Oooooohhhh...I can't wait until I can chagrin my child with it. New levels of fun!