Some days are diamonds

[mynewplace]

I look really pretty today.

   No one would know, unless I showed you.  I got stood up again today. This is turning out to be a BAAAAAD week. I'm very very angry. So I'm going to work now.

 

Drugs. I need drugs!!!!!!

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[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

No. He stood me up on Monday.

Wednesday was a no-show, and now Friday has cancelled.

If FWB doesn't follow through this weekend, I'm not sure WHAT I'm gonna do. But it ain't gonna be pretty.

[adidaschica2323.livejournal.com]

Friday cancelled? =( he sounded like lots of fun...oh well, you can always reschedule for later.

it'll be okay hun, maybe the universe is trying to tell ya something? *shrugs* I dunno.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Yes, he did sound like fun. And his reason is legitimate, plus he seems to want to reschedule. I'm not going to worry about it too much, its too far in the future. I'd end up with my blood pressure sky high again. Just a few minutes at a time.

As for the universe, I'm sure it is. I've pondered and waited for some sort of sign all my life.

When this stops being fun, I'll probably quit. And yes, this week, it hasn't been fun. At all. So maybe I will.

However, the idea of going back to nothingness is a huge deterrent to the idea of quitting. Nothingness was more horrible than I can express. At least I feel now. At least I'm alive now.

[adidaschica2323.livejournal.com]

im sure every swinger has an off week or two...it'll pick up again.

being alone is horrible, i know that first hand. anything to break the monotony is always good.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Yeah. That's pretty much it.

There's a guy, Tim, who is supposed to come over tomorrow, who talks a HUGE line about wanting us to be friends and fuckbuddies. I know his family, and it kinda freaks him out a little, excites him in a way. He talks my fucking HEAD off, but not as bad as some other people. Plus he talks in person, instead of online. BIG plus.

So he's gonna come over tomorrow for a while, before I go get Scarlett and start my weekend.

I will probably jinx the weekend fishing thing again, deargodIhopeNOT! Comparing Tim to FWB is like comparing Britney Spears to Madonna. lol

[adidaschica2323.livejournal.com]

try not to think about it too much...that's normally what jinx's it. i know, easier said than done. but don't worry...if not this weekend, then next.

[sapphirescarlet.livejournal.com]

Yeah. thinkthinkthinkthink