Thank you. I may very well do that, in fact I think I still have your regular email addy. For some strange reason the thought of venting just makes me more angry with myself. It might give me a sense of accountability, which would be good. The ONLY thing that I can anticipate making me feel better about myself is getting the sodium out of my life, and falling in love with raw vegetables again. I've gotta find some place to bury the summer sausage I have in my fridge. lol It's a full moon, maybe I'll do a ritual in the woods behind the house. (I know that sounds sarcastic, it isn't in the LEAST. I think it would do me a world of good.)